Day 1: Widsom
I wasn’t quite sure where to start with this spiritual journey, so given by my philosophy stated above wisdom seemed like the best place to start. I decided to turn to a book of wisdom that is directed towards my goal of finding purpose in God’s will.
Ecclesiastes -It’s a powerful book to say the least. I’ve studied it before, but it’s always good to feel refreshed and find new revelations on top of being reminded of what God has already revealed to me. King Solomon was the wisest person and when he (supposedly) wrote Ecclesiastes it seemed that he wanted to pass on the wisdom that he gained from his victories and downfalls.
A verse that stuck out to me was 9:15- True wisdom is powerful, but under appreciated.
That made me feel more confident about my ideas and advice that it seems no one will listen to. I was later encouraged though that all isn’t lost in wisdom because it is what God honors after reading verses 9:11-12 and 16-18.
I never noticed how the wording in 9:17 really speaks to how wisdom can fall on deaf ears. In the King James Version it says
There are no guarantees that humanity will listen to wisdom over stupidity.
Humanity is a mysterious and hard headed thing. I use that term because it is all inclusive. It includes believers, non-believers, everyone in our race, which includes me. No one is perfect and we certainly aren’t listening to the best advice or ideas all the time either. I took a look at Solomon’s life and saw how even the wisest person at the time can still suffer from humanity’s faults and weaknesses.
His final advice is encouraging in 12:14:
Then, somehow I ended up reading about spiritual wealth in Rev 3:18. I’m taking those two phrases as signs that God holds the confirmation that he has the last say, and that spiritual wealth goes to the wise.
List of what I learned over all:
1. No one is perfect, but constantly seek God’s wisdom and purpose
2. Be confident in the wisdom He gives even if others don’t listen
3. Spiritual wealth comes to those who follow God’s wisdom that He has to offer.
Day 2: Patience
So I wasn’t quite sure where I was going to go next. I started reading Romans and nothing was really popping out at me. Then I read Romans 10:19
I have to admit I’ve felt that way a lot over the years. Nothing annoys me more than people who flaunt their stupidity with pride. It’s even worse when they seem to get what I want without really deserving it.
I just don’t understand sometimes how things workout so well for those people, while God’s people are struggling so hard.
I went to the Parallel text in Deuteronomy 32:21 :
I had to say I was feeling Moses on his lament over Israel that followed. I have to admit that I have been on both sides of that lament as the annoyed and as the one being annoying. Lately though especially over the past year. I’ve been more annoyed than ever.
He went on his tangent for quite awhile. I was starting to wonder where he was really going with it besides the obvious. I guess that is a good example about rants. It’s good to vent and get things off your mind, but don’t let it go on so long that it appears to consume you.
God interjects Moses to stop his ranting and makes him take an anger check. After that his tone totally changes. It was a very powerful and direct call of patience in my opinion.
Verse 36 fascinated me because it shows how God will have mercy on hard headed believers humanity far more than those who have no desire to know him.
Patience feels like the lesson for the day. Patience not only with others but with myself as well. Sometimes it’s best to just accept hard headed moments, learn from it, and move on.
Verse 47 shows a lot of value in patience in obedience to God.
I think I could work on my patience in using more wisdom before I do, say, or feel something. That would allow me to use my my gift of discernment more, thus getting some spiritual exercise.
Today I learned:
1. It’s ok to get frustrations out, but keep it in reason
2. Be patient in the Lord because he is just and will always remember his children
3. He shows mercy on his servants because he honors our obedience
4. Our cries don’t go unheard. He’s crying right there with us.
“God will send the rain when He’s ready. You need to prepare your fields to receive it.”
- The movie Facing the Giants
“It’s the feeling during worship that I desire, It’s a time where it’s just me being me and God being God. It’s the only thing in this world that I truly understand.”
- Austin Grey
Day 4: An Overdue Apology
So I was watching Facing the Giants the other night, which I had seen before and really enjoyed it. I don’t ever think God will stop amazing me about how He can make everything so new to me when He wants me to see something.
I started thinking about how much I really want to coach kids through God’s example, and I’ve set it as a goal to reach for in the future. I thought that was it, but then God wasn’t finished with me.
I kept thinking about my past with my college team, and how much of a trial it was. I didn’t turn my back on God then, but I didn’t open my eyes and my heart to please him as I played. Hummanity got to me and I was constantly tearing myself apart to please people that were never going to be happy with me.
I started becoming someone I didn’t recognize and blamed it on the sport and when it threw me away like I was nothing I was totally lost. That old me really did die inside at that time and yes I made a some bad choices on my own and there was a lot of evil coming against me from all sides, but in the end it was my change in mentality and pride that took the passion that was keeping me level headed from me.
I apologized to God for all my selfishness and the pain it must have caused him during those years.
I’ve learned how that no matter what I though my passions into, what I put every effort into has to be to please God and nobody else. I reaped the fruit of doing that a few months ago and then God rewarded me with a new job and so much more.
Since then He has rewarded me with peace and joy, even at my lowest since then it was nothing compared to what I used to feel every hour of everyday. Through it I have realized the joy I am chasing and how I feel during genuine worship of him is a light that stays with me long after the band plays. I can’t wait for the day to be in the moment of eternal worship. That is the feeling I desire and the feeling I am chasing.
God revealed to me confirmation through His Word after I was done praying and I feel so new about the topic.
Eternal worship…How glorious it will be…
Day 5: Vulnerabilty
You know, I realized that our humanity has a big desire for vulnerability. I think that’s what we are so obsessed with falling in love. Our culture as Christians and Americans put a big emphasis on relationships.
Recently everyone I know is either married or on their way there. I think it’s awesome and beautiful. I know I desire it myself very badly. I keep wondering why can’t I desire to spend time with God like that?
I put my Bible down and started really thinking about it. How God must feel when we desire everything else in this life but him. It’s hard to say but out humanity wants contact. We want to feel the presence of a response and touch.
I sat there and really listened to the silence of the night. It was slight but I listened and something subtly.
I want to be vulnerable and broken to someone that has me as a priority in there life. There’s no one like that in my life at all and it hurts. That is what God is supposed to be in my life, but it hurts to have to work so hard to feel it.
The number one reason relationships don’t work out is because one or possibly both people don’t want to put the work into making it work and being available for the other.
God is available for me. It’s up to me to be more available. I feel if I practice then maybe it will not be so hard to feel that presence there.
If we pursued falling in love with God the way we did falling in love with people who knows what we would be capable of?
Day 6: Gratitude
So after church I had lunch with my friends and picked up another shift at my old job. I wanted some extra money for the week, and missed some of the people there so I thought it wouldn’t be so bad.
I worked there Saturday and Sunday, and let me tell you….I was so wrong.
Drama came up again and I was so hurt to be treated so badly. I was angry at myself to have wasted a weekend with all of that ungrateful negativity. I started beating myself up about how I had sold out time I could have spent with God for a little bit of money.
I felt like I really let God down, but then I really thought about it. It might have been exactly where he wanted me to be. On Saturday I was able to pray for someone I didn’t know that well, but she was going through a lot of struggles physically, spiritually, and financially. I really feel God used me to bless her and remind her that he loves her and is with her during this trial.
That was really worth all the drama alone. Other little things happened that was worth getting my feelings hurt again. I was able to be there and build a connection with a new friend that I really want to show Christ’s love and power to.
A big reason though I’m really glad I worked that weekend was because it made me grateful for the promise God made me. He delivered me from that bondage I was in, and is helping me to deliver others.
I was starting to get too comfortable in my current position and taking it for granite. After a crazy weekend like that I was so happy to return to my cubicle! I’ve decided it would be a good spiritual discipline to pick up there at least once a month to build humility. God showed me how I never want to forget where I have come from and to be grateful for where I am at.
Humility is always a very hard lesson to learn, but I am happy to have experienced it so I don’t let hardship and pain turn me into someone who is hard headed and hate full.
Day 7: Hmm…
I guess I shouldn’t expect something big to be revealed to me everyday. I guess it’s one of those days you just need to let God be God in your life and guide you.
Sometimes it’s good to stop asking of God and just listen expecting nothing in return. It’s a really simple form of praise. Just taking the time of silence to to just be open to him can be so beautiful!
So I think there is a lot of growth to be done by looking at new perspectives. I read some articles today at Relevant Magazine’s website, and thought they were a good basis for discovering God today.
I was thinking about Prayer the other day and thought about how I could incorporate more of it in my life. Paul wrote a beautiful prayer for strength that I found very relevant for what I needed right now.
While I was browsing Relevant’s site I saw I was not the only one with Prayer on the mind. I thought it was a good point to make. I tend to be so selfish in prayer and ask for this and that. It’s important to let God’s will be in even our prayers, so we can make sure that we are asking the right request of God.
Then through some more browsing I around another article that was exactly what led to this type of post.
I started hitting a bit of a wall when it came to the Bible. As you can tell from the other day I wasn’t getting much to go from it. The author was right about how I was doing it because I thought I had to. I decided to take a little break and let God speak to me in other ways. A lot of time like today he ended up leading me back into His Word.
It was nice to get out of a runt before I got to far into it. I hate it when I start getting redundant and obvious about God, even though sometimes really honesty is in a cliche. I just try to limit those the best I can.
I used some of these principles to revamp my spiritual life. I thought they were pretty helpful during these 40 days